L - A - S - T:
01. Last Cigarette: a little over an hour ago
02. Last kiss: umm, a week or so ago
03. Last Cry: last night
04. Last Library Book Checked Out: some book for school last semester
05. Last Movie Seen In a Theater: umm...i forget. damnit. it was scary. ohh! mirrors
06. Last Book Read: umm, i don't know
07. Last Cuss Word Uttered: probably something along the lines of "fuckin kelly!"
08. Last Beverage Drank: cranberry juice and vodka
09. Last Food Consumed: seasons
10. Last time drunk: umm, tonight
11. Last TV Show Watched: probably something on the disney channel with kelly
12. Last Time Showered: last night
13. Last Shoes Worn: heals
14. Last CD played: mix
15. Last Soda Drank: coke.
16. Last Thing Written: notes in class today
17. Last Words Spoken: bye
18. Last Annoyance: my current headache
19. Last Time Scolded By Someone: mommom and baba today
20. Last Web Site Visited: livejournal. duh
21. Last Movie you watched: mirrors?
22. Last movie you bought: no clue
23. Last song you listened to: the hangover song by atmosphere, but i forget its name
24. Last bought CD: umm, no fucking clue
25. Last person that called you: mommom?
26. Last person you were thinking of: no comment.
27. Last friend you made: ummmm....rachel and morgan today lol

B - O - D - Y:
01. Piercings: ears, nose, tongue, belly button, cooter 
02. Tattoos: 15
03. Height: 5'1"
04. Shoe size: 6 1/2
05. Hair color: brown
06. Tan or white: pretty tan for me

T - R - U - E * O - R * F - A - L - S - E :
01. You have a crush on someone: false
02. You wish you could live somewhere else: true
03. You thought about suicide: true
04. You believe in online dating: false
05. You want more Piercings: true
06. You drink: true
07. You do drugs: meh
08. You smoke: true
09. You like cleaning: false
10. You like roller costers: true
11. You write in cursive: sometimes

F - O - R * O - R * A - G - A - I - N - S - T:
01. Long distance relationships?: i mean, if you can pull through it
02. Teenage smoking: against
03. Doing drugs: against
04. Driving drunk: against.
05. Soap operas: against.
06. Someone uses someone for his or her goodies: against.
07. Gay rights: for.
08. Current War: against

H - A - V - E * Y - O - U :
01. Ever cried over a female/male: yes.
02. Ever lied to someone: yes.
03. Ever been in a fistfight: only with my sister, haha
04. Ever been arrested: yes

W - H - A - T :
01. converse or vans. both.
02. What are you scared of: being alone
03. Whats your favorite flower: daisy

N - U - M - B - E - R :
01. Of times you have been deeply in love: twice
02. Of times you have had your heart broken? more than i'd like to talk about
03. Of hearts you have broken: idk.
04. Of drugs taken? meh
05. Of people you consider your enemies? i dunno
06. Of scars on your body? i cant count them all
07. Of things in your past that you regret? nothing.

Fuck depression that hits harder in the fall. It's driving me insane. I'm sick of crying, and sitting alone in my house the few hours i'm not at work, at school, or asleep.

this weekend, will be an amazing weekend :)

i need new friends. fuck you all.

so i guess things will never change.

i wish i could just move. far, far away.



sorry, i just dont care about anyone enough to stay here any longer.

sorry about that big rant last night, i was really upset. however, the one person i really wanted to read it, did...so i'm good now.

i don't even know where to start. a lot of shit went down tonight. i finally got something off my chest that has been eating me away for 2 years. but as usual, it just made things worse. i try to be there, i try to be a good friend, but no matter what, i always tend to fuck up things more than they need to be. i can't believe i'm such a selfish person. i try to help, i really do.

i'm sorry that i still really care about you. honestly, i wish i didn't. all you've done is fuck me over. again and again. why is she so much better than me? i gave you everything i fucking could, and what do i get? nothing. she's my best fucking friend in this world. and yet i'm jealous of every fucking aspect of her. she's got so much going for her and she doesn't realize it. well i guess thats why you choose her over me. i guess its obvious.

i try, i really do. and i guess thats all i can do. at least i keep telling myself that. but i'm really sick of being walked all over. i try to do anything and everything that i can to help you. but hell, i guess i'm not even a real friend to you am i? you sure as hell don't act like it, you don't act like i tried to be everything you wanted me to be. i gave you everything i could, even my virginity, and what do i fucking get? i'm the one sitting here alone sulking in my own self pity because i have nothing better to do.

so the past 2 and a half days have made me wish i was dead. i haven't been this sick in years. with the exception of like, me getting my galbladder out. but that doesn't count.

i dont know which one of you got me sick, but i'm so pissed.

anyway, i'm feeling a lot better after sleeping about 18 hours. Jimmy Buffet concert tailgating tomorrow. can't wait. i feel a lot better now, but i better be good for tomorrow.

ugh, we'll i'm gonna go lay back down so i'm rested for tomorrow.

i can't believe i actually pierced it.

okay...so i couldn't wait til wednesday.

cupcake anyone?

the title says it all.

nothing yet, but monday and wednesday are quickly approaching.

okay...so i didn't get it pierced. but i am thinking about it.

me and lisa were gonna get it done together.

what are your opinions?

what would you say if i told you i got my cooter pierced?

thanks guys but i don't think i can get my cooter pierced.

so i settled for my septum. its the ugliest piercing in the world, but i don't really care.


in other news, boys are stupid.

so i want something new pierced.

any ideas?

I suppose i should say goodbye to FL. we leave in like, 5 hours.

however, i still have like, half of my spring break left. well not really half. but a few days.

i'd just like to let everyone know it took me like 5 minutes for me to type these last two sentences because i can't type to save my life.

thank you all, i bid you goodnight.

MarkO is being all emo, and i don't like it.

my family can go fuck themselfs. i kinda wish i was back in Delaware.